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Thursday, March 12, 2009
posted at : 10:22 PM
GEE GEE GEE GEE~ baby baby baby!
SNC00011
posted at : 10:21 PM
GEE GEE GEE GEE~ baby baby baby!
mr lee and his CRYSTALS
it just another slack day in the camp lab...
posted at : 10:21 PM
GEE GEE GEE GEE~ baby baby baby!
SNC00021
posted at : 10:17 PM
GEE GEE GEE GEE~ baby baby baby!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
well.. its the new year already yah. lots of things had happened. and. hmmm. im feeling a little confused myself about everything. my future. my studies. my thoughts. my actions. my words.
i cant fully describe how im really feeling. but i believe, that if your in my situation you'll say the same thing too. im really a great listener but seriously not a person who can talk to others about my personal stuff or what really is on my mind. i haven't really found that someone to talk to, to confide in. sadly, no. but i really wish that someone would appear before me. cos as times past, things pile up, problems arise and thoughts gather, i get more stress. all i ever do to get rid of it is to breakdown and cry in one corner, but i dont want that! cos crying is temporary and cant solve anything.
i need a special friend i can talk to with comfortably. a friend whom i can confide in and even listen to his/her problems when he/she is down. i dont need a guy's love... all i want at this age is a best friend whom i can trust and feel comfortable talking to. i know many people tried to open up the key to my thoughts, but i just didnt let them see through me. im sorry if i hurt them, but its just really difficult for me to open up about personal stuff. well, deep within the crazy me, there's always this inner me who finds it hard to speak up truthfully.
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recently. my friend told me, what i believe was, his deepest secrets. well. at first i really didnt expect it. but after he told me. i dont know why. but i felt like laughing. truthfully, it was of no laughing matter but it was simply something beyond my expectations of him. i really was quite speechless. but seriously, i went through this before cos my other best friend also turned out this way. he really is a person worth admiring, but im not saying that after he told me his secret his no longer a person worth admiration. or maybe he became a person whom people might admire more, if you see things in a different light.
after a while.. i felt that his truthfulness towards me was really genuine. i mean, we may have barely known each other that well and he wanted me to know it. is this what we call the beginning of a true friendship? when both can trust each other with secrets? he was actually quite surprised that he brought himself to tell me his secrets. even before, he told me one of his sad points in life. maybe he chose me as his listener. someone to be there when he needs a listening ear.
to him: if your reading this right now. i just wanna say. you've made your chioce in the things your doing now. you told me that you felt that its not right, but also not wrong at the same time. i do respect your decision. really. i'll really respect it. thanks for believing in me, that im a friend whom you can confide in. i really wanna be there when you need someone to talk to. although we may not meet as often but do keep me updated ya!
posted at : 11:54 PM
GEE GEE GEE GEE~ baby baby baby!
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